Vivo Per Lei

Now i know not a lot of people listen to opera,
it can be an acquired taste.
however,
since i love EVERYTHING [no exceptions],
i happen to adore opera.
i think its such a beautiful genre of music.
i especially appreciate that most opera artists sing in at least 3 languages,
english, spanish, french, or italian.
i love it.
its all so beautiful.

carrying on,
denial is hard.
as in,
im trying very hard to deny my feelings.
to squander them.
make them nonexistant.
i dont wanna have these feelings for her.
i hate that i do.
so im trying to deny them.
but as a said,
denial is hard.
but as hard as denial can be,
rejection is even harder.
so lets see how this all turns out, yes?

so last night,
well actually it was very early this morning,
i was very honest and frank with someone
who i love very much.
we arent what we used to be,
but id like us to be that again.
however,
this is her decision.
not mine.
i hope she decides yes.
but if she doesnt,
ive already moved on.
ive found life outside of her.
and i know ill live.
there will just be a hole that continues to shrink.
and after enough time,
i wont miss her anymore.
hopefully.

emo post.
lets cheer it up.
hmm....
tomorrow is my day off! yay!
and i cut my hair.
heck yes.

so i really wanted to post a pic on this to make it more cheerful.
my original plan was to post a pic of a rainbow,
but when i went to photobucket and typed in rainbow i found this:

i love it.
so cute.
i totally wish i could do my hair like that.
mmkay.
im ending this on a happy note. lol.

love.

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