top 10 albums of 2008

so these are in no particular order,
just the 10 best of 08.

1. Fearless by Taylor Swift- She's good at what she does, singing and songwriting. She's honest and ruthless, which i appreciate. And eventho she's become popular, her music still isnt pop.
Love: Youre Not Sorry, Change, Breathe

2. Funhouse by Pink- Her vocals never fail to impress. You can hear every emotion in her voice, anger, hurt, excitement. Her songs range from serious to fun all with some truth to them.
Love: So What, I Dont Believe You, Its All Your Fault




3. Doll Domination by The Pussycat Dolls- This album didnt do as great as expected. And it def was no PCD. However, I still managed to love it and listen to it nonstop when it came out. Yes, Nicole does sing everything, but she also has the best voice. So, get over it.
Love: I Hate This Part, Who's Gonna Love You, Magic

4. Anywhere I Lay My Head by Scarlett Johansson- Most critics didnt like this album. Personally, I loved it. Its completely unlike anything out there. ScarJo didnt decide to go the over-produced pop route. She instead took her favorite Tom Waits songs and covered them. The songs are different and her voice sounds nothing like you would expect it to. However, its a lovely surprise, if you can appreciate it.
Love: I Don't Want To Grow Up, I Wish I Was In New Orleans, Falling Down




5. A Hundred Million Suns by Snow Patrol- By now, you might have noticed that I'm heavily biased towards anything with piano. This album is no exception. It uses piano beautifully, sometimes giving it an eerie allure. His voice is smooth and draws me in, almost as if I wish he was whispering in my ear.
Love: The Lightening Strike, Crack The Shutters, There's A Rocket to Tie Me to It

6. The Glass Passenger by Jack's Mannequin- Another heavily piano based album. This band is amazing live. This album is exceptionally catchy. It can make you happy or it can make you sad. The lead singer, Andrew, went through so much with leukemia, and his journey reflects in the lyrics.
Love: Caves, Orphans, Swim, Annie Use Your Telescope

7. Circus by Britney Spears- She really is the comeback kid. This girl went through everything, came back from it, and as a result, put out an amazing album. Its upbeat and catchy. The only thing I disliked about this album is "My Baby." I know its supposed to be a heartfelt song for her sons, but its boring and painful. Other than that, all the songs are amazing, wonderfully produced, and not overly vocally synthetic.
Love: Mannequin, Trouble, Unusual You, Kill The Lights



8. Be OK by Ingrid Michaelson- While I like her previous album more, I still love how she goes about her music. There is a strong piano influence, but her voice is heavenly. There are a few live songs on the album, which is different and a nice change. However, my favorites are those recorded in studio.
Love: Keep Breathing, Giving Up, Oh What A Day, Lady in Spain

9. 808's And Heartbreaks by Kanye West- I like this album, because, like with Scarlett's, its different from what we're currently hearing. While i personally despise Kanye West because he thinks he is literally God, he is good at what he does. He's almost a musical genius, but never a musical God, gees he pisses me off.
Love: Heartless, RoboCop, Coldest Winter

10. One Of the Boys by Katy Perry- As much as I hate her for making bisexuality seem so easy, common, and slutty, she has a good album. Her songs are incredibly catchy. And as much as I seem to want to hate her, I cant. I try, but i cant. Shes like a freaking STD, contagious.
Love: Hot N Cold, One of the Boys, Ur So Gay

la rosa blanca

so i recently discovered AOL Radio,
and im completely in love with it.
they have freaking everything.
its amazing.
right now my station is navidad latina.
and a lot of songs from the album,
Navidad con Bachata,
have been coming up.
i freaking love these songs.
christmas music + spanish + bachata = happy kristina.
its freaking christmas music you can dance to.
im in love with AOL Radio.
its a fact.

Belén, campanas de Belén,
que los ángeles tocan
¿qué nuevas me traéis?

moving on,
i had a dream last night.
i hate dreaming,
mostly because i never have a normal dream.
i always dream about someone.
more specifically,
someone i know.
and ugh.
it bugs man.
everyone that knows me already knows i have the weirdest dreams.

so anyways,
i had another weird dream last night.
first,
my cousin Marc was in it,
and i hardly ever see him.
so idk why he was here.
and we were in his house,
but it didnt look like his house.
not at all.
and i remember looking at a clear tuna can,
and seeing like tiny worm-ish looking things inside the can,
that are apparently normal.
and it was creepy.

and after that lovely dream,
i had another about my ex.
nothing dirty,
i promise.
but i wont go into what it was about.

i dream weird.
i really wish i could stop.
but i cant.
suggestions?



so,
dont ask,
but i started thinking about kissing.
and i was thinking that i hope everyone has either already experienced,
or gets the chance to experience that one kiss.

its the kiss where nothing else matters.
the world around you becomes a blur.
your hands are intertwined with hers.
your heart keeps racing.
but you cant hear it.
you cant hear anything.
all you can feel is her lips brushing against yours.
your lips get completely weak.
you want to move them.
you want to kiss back.
but shes taken everything.
its impossible to kiss back.
youre happy just not to collapse

thats the kiss im talking about.
everyone should have a kiss that makes them weak
in the knees and in the lips.




ok.
enough from me.

peace!

<33

trouble

britney's cd came out today.
yay!
her performances have been lacking.
too much walking.
not enough dancing.
but i cant get enough of the cd.
makes me wanna dance.
i heart it.
buy Circus!

anyways,
being stuck on someone sucks.
esp since girls throw themselves at him,
but you know that he isnt a womanizer.
he's...amazing.
and it kills me.
KILLS.

bgrifeadosml


peace!

Stuff Like That There

the version by kelly clarkson is amazing.
but, then again, im biased.
oh well.
ha.


sooo....
i finished reading Twilight.
the book is pretty dang awesome.
Theres a few things I cant wrap my head around.
one is how damn fast Bella and Edward fall in love.
I can understand Bella's obsession with Edward,
and vice versa.
but love? really?
it seems like puppy love, if anything, to me.
and isnt it a bit too soon for her to know that she wants to be with Edward FOREVER?
i mean, really, things change, people change.
How can she be sure that she wants to be a vampire forever?
i just cant understand that.

and i know what some people are probably thinking.
i am skeptical.
i am jaded.
i am cynical.
everyone already knows that.
so get over it.
im just being realistic.
to me,
love takes time.
its not something that just happens.
idk.
my opinion.
if you dont like,
oh the fuck well!

i also saw Twilight the movie today.
it sucks ass.
one of the worst screen adaptions ever.
if the actor playing Edward Cullen wasnt so completely dreamy and gorgeous,
i dont think it would have been worth it.
hell,
my eyes were closed in the scenes he wasnt in.
and they completely fucked up and changed the scene of Bella and Edward's first kiss.
Not the same.
it was a very poor adaptation.
save your money.
just read the book and let it end there.
trust me.

thats all.

peace!

sliding down the pole.

sexy, right?
haha.
ohh E-40.
how i love you...

there she goes sliding down the pole...

anyways,
rain is possibly the most orgasmic thing there is.
lets face it,
its damn fucking amazing.
it makes days ten times better.
and i know what a lot of people are probably thinking...
i enjoy the rain from inside my apt and stay dry,
i dont have to get wait.
but reality check folks.
i walked home in the pouring rain tonight.
it was the freaking most amazing thing ever.
watching the rain fall to the ground,
seeing puddles form,
hearing the sound of tires rolling through the water,
smelling the fresh scent of rain,
feeling it soak my hair, run down my face, and make my clothes drenched.
its the best thing ever,
if you take the time to appreciate it.
so what if you get wet.
go home, take off your clothes, and shower.
case solved.
enjoy the little things like rain.
realize how dang blessed you are to be alive
and feel the drops of water fall on your bare skin.



oh rain.
i wish i could hug you.
and cuddle with you.
mmhmm...
im a dork and i dont care.
ha!

lets see...
school is a bitch.
as is work.
end of story there.

im just beginning to read twilight.
im about 130 pages into it.
and i am already completely charmed by Edward Cullen.
in my mind,
he is just about the most attractive and charming man on earth.
i love that the book is written from Bella's point of view,
because, as im sure many girls do,
i see everything as she does.
im becoming obsessed with edward,
just as she is.
im intrigued by him,
just as she is.
i want an edward in my life.
bad.
lets face it, who doesnt?
hes dangerous and mysterious.
im hooked.
i want to find someone like him,
but edwards are few and far between.
and on top of that,
why would an edward even pick me to be their bella?
its hopeless.
but thats ok.
because i can continue to live vicariously through bella. =]

i believe thats all for tonight.
im either going to sleep.
or read twilight.
=]



peace!
<33

born for this.

so ive really REALLY lagged on my blogging.
its bad.
so.
i guess ill start with a bunch of cd reviews.

up first,
Circus by Britney Spears.
Its been leaked on the internet for a couple of weeks now.
I am completely in love with this new album.
Its catchy.
Its britney, bitch.
My favorites are "unusual you," "mannequin," and "if you seek amy."
oh and also "out from under."
all in all,
its an incredible album.
there are two songs that couldve been left out.
i kinna wish she had waited to put out blackout
and mixed the best songs from both cds.
that would be a killer album.
however,
considering everything she's been through,
britney has managed to put out an incredible album
with infectious hook and cheeky lyrics.
buy it dec 2nd!



next is taylor swift's fearless.
there isnt much i need to say about taylor.
she has a magnificent talent when it comes to writing songs.
i wish i had that talent.
her lyrics have a vulnerability and sincerity that are hard to get through in a song.
she writes what she feels,
no matter what others, including ex-boyfriends, might think.
she's strong, honest, and only eighteen.
being the sucker for piano that i am,
one of my favorite songs off the album is "youre not sorry."
i also love her duet with colbie calliat, "breathe."



the killers put their new album day and age out.
nothing great to say about it.
nothing to say in general really.
its eh.
nothing special,
at least not to me.
nothing made me want to have them on repeat.
that says it all for me right there.



E-40 is putting out his The Ball Street Journal album.
everyone knows that i have a thing for this man's voice.
while he is in no way physically attractive,
theres just something about his voice.
i wanna fucking have sex to it.
and what the hell,
id have sex to this album.
mmmm...

mmkay. those are all my reviews.
ill write another blog for my random thoughts.

peace!
<33

corazon espinado

once again,
ive been lagging on this blog.
but,
i cant help it,
ive been legitimately busy.
ha.

so anywho.
news...
hm...
i got to see some of the set up for miley's
super sweet 16 at disneyland,
when i went on sunday for gay day.

gay day was pretty eh.
i think i was expecting more homos.
too many families. ha.
it was super super crowded.
not cool.
i get really impatient when theres ppl everywhere.

but on the plus side,
there were cute babies GALORE!
i friggin love kids.
no joke.
i totally just wanted to take one for a couple of hours
and return it later.
lol.
yes,
i love kids THAT much.

anywho.
i usually get what i want.
as proven.
ha!

this made my day:


i want to marry this woman.
she is completely gorgeous.
there arent words to describe her.
seriously.
mmm....

moving on,
i have a problem.
so apparently,
trying to repress something
by focusing on something else
only works so much.
after a certain point,
it all catches up with you
and youre fucked,
as i am now.

i really want some hot cheetoes.

mmkay.

love.

<33

last of days

mmm...
new shows make me very happy.
ha.
new house.
new one tree hill.
new gossip girl.
new greys.
new private practice.
ahh.
to have new shows once again.
its lovely really.
<3

anywho.
so britney says she plans on a world tour next year.
im so excited about this.
no joke.
i havent seen brit on tour since 2000.
thats 8 years yo.
ahhhh.

um.
im not sure i have anything else to say celeb-wise.

but personally,
im a sucker.
i never learn.
and thankfully,
i have very tall and thick walls built up around me,
so that when i dont learn again,
i wont be hurt.
yay for defense mechanisms!
lol.

but yeah.
truth is,
i just cant do what i should.
i cant.
but thankfully,
i keep learning more and more about this person,
and this information has proven to be invaluable.
it helps me to build taller and thicker walls
and be prepared.

so lets have fun, yeah?

bah.
im sleepy.
my eyes hurt.

ohh.
circle k was hella fun!
yay!

love.

<33

amor de los dos

chente.
mmm...
listen
and
fall in love.
or
watch his performance with alejandro.
i get to see this amazing man in november
for my 19th birthday.
hell fucking yeah.

breaking news is
scarlett johansson just married ryan reynolds
in canada.
congrats to the majorly hotttt couple.
lets hope it works out.
i wonder how it is going from alanis morisette being your gf
to marrying scarlett.
its like night at day.
for reals.
but at least alanis seems to be doing well.
=]

i watched the presidential debate.
i now like obama more than i previously did,
but i would probably still vote for mccain.
damn this depression we're going through.
its killing me.
we need change.
im just afraid obama might be too much change.
i still dont know who id vote for.
and i also hate that mccain is against gays.
bah.
decisions.
all i know is
NO on prop 8!

so.
i have a tough decision to make regarding the weekend.
san diego with my 3 best friends from high school.
or gay day at disneyland with one new bff.
bah.
im so torn.
i know wht i SHOULD do.
but i also know what i WANT to do.



love.

<33

dream

i had a dream.
that i could fly from the highest swing.
i had a dream.

such a beautiful song
by priscilla ahn.
it was heard in the season 4 finale of
greys anatomy.

speaking of greys anatomy,
tonights premiere was a huge disappointment.
seriously.
every good part was fake.
"im carrying your child."
not.
"dereks dead."
not.
gees.
the best part of the night was with hahn and torres.
theyre lesbian virgins.
theyve only been with guys.
so cute.
and i find hahn completely hot.
like fuckkkk.
haha.
lets hope itll be better in 2 weeks, yeah?

on a better note,
im looking forward to the premiere of
Brothers&Sisters.
Such an amazing cast.
I hope it doesnt disappoint.

today was my first day of class.
it was nice.
it reminded me oh how beautiful it is here.
the campus, the city, everything.
complete opposite of the ghetto area i grew up in.
ha.



im still super excited for autumn and cold weather.
ima dork up the ass when it comes to the weather changing
and the holidays.
but know what?
im good with that.
ha.

lets see.
what else?
hmm...

oh!
clay aiken came out.
about friggin time!
we all knew from the beginning.
but geesh.
idk why he felt he had to hide it.
but thats his decision.
and hes out now.
=]
congrats!

so im really glad that im not the type of person to live with regrets,
otherwise,
id probably be living with one right...about..NOW!
haha.
but im a firm believer in everything happens for a reason
and you only learn from your mistakes.
i took a risk today,
knowing it wouldnt go in my favor.
and thats fine with me.
cuz at the end of the day,
i did it.
i have it a shot.
i tried.
ha.

ok.
im off.

love.

<33

hot n cold

you
change your mind
like a girl
changes clothes
yeah you
pms
like a bitch
i should know

so i hate katy perry for popularizing bisexuality
and trivializing it
but this damn song is infectious
and as much as i wanna hate it,
i cant.
fuck.

moving on.
so school starts tomorrow
{well technically today}.
bah.
three back to back classes.
1230 to 5.
no breaks.
boo.
life loves me.
haha.
i wish.

um...
so.
i heard something interesting this week,
which i wont write,
because im not entirely sure who reads this.
but i found this piece of information interesting,
as it pertained to me.
but gosh,
could that information not be further from the truth.
and if it is,
people are amazing at masking who they are and what they feel.
bah.
i wish i could write more.
in fact,
i will.
on my blog that only i can read.
muahahaha.





love.

<33

Si no te hubieras ido

its a great song
originally by marco antonio solis,
but im listening to version by mana.

anyways,
i decided to blog right now
because as i was reading,
lindsay and samantha finally confirmed their relationship,
and the dork i am,
i found that to be super cute.

so,
i just went on youtube
and typed in ana gabriel and vicente fernandez
and theres footage from their vegas concert
and it gave me fucking chills.
these two singers are AMAZING!
there arent two people more legendary in the world of rancheras out there.
Chente is king.
Ana is queen.
Fuck,
i still have chills.
all over.
they wont go away.
gbsvnkjsdfblj


ok. ima go youtube crazy.


love.

<33

building a mystery

people enjoy fucking with my emotions.
seriously.
i never know what to believe or feel,
so i build a wall.
and building walls is never good
but its better than getting hurt.
i hate getting hurt.
it sucks ass.
but idk what this girl is thinking.
no clue.

moving on,
i wrote a song today waiting for the bus.
it was weird.
i dont write songs.
but it kinna just came to me.
so i typed it in my blackberry
and there it shall stay.
my favorite line
and the inspiration is
"i want you like i want a cigarette."
and if you know me,
i dont smoke,
so im not addicted to this person.
cigarettes fuck with my heart,
just like this girl.

hmm....
baby body wash and baby lotion by
Johnson&Johnson is my favorite scent in the world.
for reals.
ima such a kid.

so fall and winter are on their way.
and i would really love if these appeared on my doorstep:

please?


mmkay.

love.

<33

HushHushHush

Love Love Love
the new PCD album.

"i dont want to
do this any longer
I dont want to
say a single word.
Hush hush hush hush hush"

moving on,
hm.
so today i decided i like myself.
like im damn cool for a dork.
i love that i get excited when the seasons change
and how much i look forward to the rain.
I love that i get excited over the smallest things.
i love that im always laughing.
i just love me.
im not perfect.
but im me.
and im good with that.



ok. well i have an early bus to catch.
i just didnt wanna lag on my blogs.

love.

<33

Vivo Per Lei

Now i know not a lot of people listen to opera,
it can be an acquired taste.
however,
since i love EVERYTHING [no exceptions],
i happen to adore opera.
i think its such a beautiful genre of music.
i especially appreciate that most opera artists sing in at least 3 languages,
english, spanish, french, or italian.
i love it.
its all so beautiful.

carrying on,
denial is hard.
as in,
im trying very hard to deny my feelings.
to squander them.
make them nonexistant.
i dont wanna have these feelings for her.
i hate that i do.
so im trying to deny them.
but as a said,
denial is hard.
but as hard as denial can be,
rejection is even harder.
so lets see how this all turns out, yes?

so last night,
well actually it was very early this morning,
i was very honest and frank with someone
who i love very much.
we arent what we used to be,
but id like us to be that again.
however,
this is her decision.
not mine.
i hope she decides yes.
but if she doesnt,
ive already moved on.
ive found life outside of her.
and i know ill live.
there will just be a hole that continues to shrink.
and after enough time,
i wont miss her anymore.
hopefully.

emo post.
lets cheer it up.
hmm....
tomorrow is my day off! yay!
and i cut my hair.
heck yes.

so i really wanted to post a pic on this to make it more cheerful.
my original plan was to post a pic of a rainbow,
but when i went to photobucket and typed in rainbow i found this:

i love it.
so cute.
i totally wish i could do my hair like that.
mmkay.
im ending this on a happy note. lol.

love.

<33

Fannin' street

so i know that a lot of critics put down Scarlett Johansson's CD,
Anywhere I Lay My Head.
They critiqued her voice.
However,
I loved her album.
Its different from a lot of stuff out there.
She didnt make a typical actress to singer album.
She did what she wanted and what she liked,
and i love it.
fuck the critics.
ha.

i was walking today
across the huge paved intersection right by the 405.
cars of all types were passing by,
pushing wind across my face
as i took heavy steps on the hard concrete
in the steamy heat.
my imaginative mind for some odd seconds
took time to pause the usual thoughts
and thought
"what if?"
what if i stepped off the curb of the sidewalk
and ran quickly into the flowing line of traffic?
what if in one defining moment i decided to end everything?
would anyone miss me?
would anyone cry?
would anything change?
would i finally know if heaven exists?
would i be eternally happy?

but as long as i contemplated this,
i contemplated living even longer.
life sucks.
this i know to be a fact.
karma is non existent.
some people get everything,
while others get nothing.
being who you are
doenst always get you who you want.
you never get what you want.
and sometimes you dont even get what you need.

however,
im lucky.
i have someone who will never leave me.
who has never disappointed me.
who never will.
someone i can tell everything to.
someone who has saved me
and will continue to.
He is my everything.
He is all that is good and pure in this world.
He is my savior.

Plus,
in the end,
it can only be uphill from here, right?
a long hill,
with constant peaks and valleys,
but with one point thats high enough to let you touch the sky
and reach for the stars.



love.

<33

soulmate

so i had my itunes on shuffle,
this song came on,
and it could not be more perfect.
seriously.

"somebody tell me
why im on my own
if theres a soulmate for everyone."

this is pretty much what i just finished talking to my friend about.
like i always manage to get screwed from life.
i used to be a bitch,
now im not.
ive changed so much since high school.
ive actually had someone describe me as a sweetheart.
its amazing.

but i guess karma hasnt caught up with me yet.
im still getting all the crap i put into the world while i was in high school.
i want it to end.
in life, i really just want to be happy.
thats all.
im not asking for millions of dollars
or the hottest girlfriend
or fame.
i just want to be happy.
it sounds simple,
but it couldnt be harder.
idk.
sometimes i just feel like giving up on life.
what i want more than anything else in this world,
ill never get.
im over it.

bottle pop

so originally i wasnt going to blog today
cuz i was tired.
BUT
i got my hands on the new Pussycat Dolls cd,
Doll Domination.
and know what?
i got super excited!
ive been waiting and waiting for this ish.
i love what they do,
and i love nicole's voice.
i dont care if she gets all the lead vocals,
she gets them for a reason!
shit,
i watched nicole way back when she was on POPStars.
psh.



so im totally getting down right now to "elevator."
ah.
im so loving this album.
i got the album sampler this weekend,
and im so happy to have the complete album now.
i will say that when you hear a voice other than nicole's,
youre kinna like whoa!
but its nice and different.

"im just trying to elevate ya
like an elevator"

im not a big fan of slow songs in general.
i like songs you can shake your booty to.
but the slow ones on here are actually decent.
when im not in such a hyper mood,
ill listen to them and give my feedback then.
til then,
ima be listening to all the upbeat ish.

oh and there is an extra disc you can get,
its alright,
im not so sure its worth it,
other than that it gives each girl their own song,
however,
not every girl has a voice like nicole...
so...
theyre not all great.

if you wanna figure out how to get the cd,
contact me and ill send you the link.

moving on,
while i listen to doll domination,
i shall move on.
lesbians are drama.
really.
idk why.
they just are.

know what?
its really hard to focus when youre listening to an amazing album,
so im not even gonna try. haha.

peace!

enough cryin'

i havent been able to get this song out of my mind all day.
catchy as heck.

"cuz the sex was good.
you had my mind.
and i let you come back everytime."



alot of ppl should try going by this song.
seriously.
mary j blige.
download!



"ive done enough cryin.
ima do something for me."



moving on,
so i know im probably like one of the last lesbians
to find out that kim from ANTM
is a mtv news reporter and has her on show on mtvU.
i friggin love kim.
shes so damn attractive.
ah.
lesbians. =]



moving on,
i dont believe i have too much to report on the celeb front,
nothing much has stuck out to me.
kanye got arrested.
hes such a dumb ass.
youre famous.
it was your choice.
deal with the paparazzi.
gees.

on a totally non celeb front,
the weather is finally changing,
and i could not be happier.
=]
i love when the leaves change colors,
the sky darkens,
the air chills.
i feel like its such a magical time.
and im so glad im going to get to see it happen once again
in beautiful irvine.
im a dork,
im aware.
but im also damn proud!

anywho,
i was so going to rant on something,
but i cant remember.
ha.
hmm...
lets think...
oh i remember!
i was going to rant about competition.
that was it.

so lets get started.
there is no use competing for someone's affections
if they are interested in someone else,
esp if they are in love with someone else.
it really doesnt matter just how wonderful you are,
theyll never get the chance to see that
cuz theyll be too busy idolizing whomever theyre in love with.
its a lose-lose situation thats promised to end with your feelings hurt.
no matter how badly the person theyre in love with may be
or how poorly they treat them,
the person you want is going to find whatever positives they may have
and glorify them.
"love" blinds people from seeing the truth.
[yes, i am cynical enough to put love in quotations]
love is crap.
and fake.
if you havent learned that yet,
you will.
thats a promise.
;]

peace!

home

i said take me homeeeeeee....

ironically enough,
i am home.
ha.
its a great song originally by marc broussard
but i was just listening to the cover by kelly clarkson.
yes,
i am obsessed.
get over it.
and give it a try.

moving on,
i listened to a sampler for the new pusscat dolls cd,
doll domination.
it sounds amazing.
im definitely getting in,
and if you like them at all,
you should do the same. =]

hm.
im not sure if i have any interesting celeb news to report.
the video for ellen's wedding was released.
cutest thing ever!

this post is taking me forever to type tonight.
idk why.
so closing shifts suck when you have no ride home.
grr.
gotta get that fixeddd.

feelings are retarded.
no offense to anyone.
but they are.
love is a lie.
get over it.
it fails to exist.
take a good look around.
try and find it.
pure and simple and good.
its not there.
not between couples anyways.
what is love anyway?
i hate when people say its something you just know.
thats crap.
love is crap.
life is crap.
am i bitter?
nope?
jaded?
nope.
cynical?
nope.
honest?
yes. =]

mmkay.
peace!

feelin lovee

its a paula cole song.
shes actually quite good if you give her a listen.
so do so. =]

no celeb news to really report.
posh got a makeover.
cut her hair very short.
looks good.
taylor swift's new single love story has been released.
contact me if you want the link for the download.
its a good song.
and its sure to be a good album.

moving on,
why?
if only there was someone who could answer this questions to my satisfaction.
why is it that people have what they dont deserve?
and why is that those who deserve the world have nothing.
patience is overrated.
mine is running out.
its been running out.
im tired of waiting.
im tired of only living part of my life.
however,
there is no escape from this way of living it seems.
im stuck.
forever.
no escape.
can you save me?
thoughts?
opinions?

paloma negra

Paloma negra, paloma negra
Donde, donde andaras?

yes, i am mexican.
and yes,
i am friggin proud of that.
and another yes,
i would love you forever and ever if you bought be tickets to see vicente fernandez in concert this november for my birthday. =]

moving on.
vmas were today.
nothing special.
everything was pretty much a let down.
britney should have performed.
it would have been that much better had she.
oh well.
aside from another amazing performance put on by paramore,
nothing else was too memorable.
christinas performance was alright.
i think what i enjoyed most was before she performed,
when they were showing frames from all her music videos.
it gave everyone a chance to see how much she's changed over the years.
im still preferential to the dirrty era.
what can i say,
im dirrty(with 2 Rs) myself.
heres paramores performance.
its the only one worth watching.

paramore [jonnyalisblog.com]
by Alisvideo

moving on.
im not sure theres really anything else to report.
so....
how bout making me your slave forever and getting me them chente tickets, eh?
lol.


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breathe on me

there could not be a more perfect song that couldve come on.
haha.
so i decided i would blog on something very random,
but its stuck on my mind.

i miss that moment.
know which one im talking about?
the one where youre lying down,
your hair is spread across the sheets,
her hands are intertwined with yours,
your legs are in between hers,
she looks down on you with her eyes that say everything,
until she softly touches your neck with her tender lips.
your breath deepens,
your palms quench,
your eyes roll back,
your mouth quietly lets out a gentle moan
because she just took your breath away...

te quiero

Y es que te quiero ohuuuu
Baby te quiero ohuuuu
Desde que te he conoci yo vivo tan feliz

its a cheesy song.
ill admit to that.
but its also catchy as fuck.
te quiero by dj felx.

onto news,
christina aguilera released her new song, "keeps getting better" yesterday.
its alright.
im not too sure what to describe it as.
its definitely not anything youve heard from her.
shes departed from her retro, back to basics feel,
thats for certain.
the chorus goes:
Some days I'm a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I'm your super girl
and out to save the world and it keeps getting better
im sure the song will grow on me with time,
but for now,
its just alright.
3 stars out of 5.

if youd like the link for the download,
contact me.

continuing on,
i got quite excited when i saw this video here:

Video: Britney's Back!
what else do you think other than,
BRITNEYS PERFORMING AT THE VMAS!
however, sadly,
that isnt the case.
according to PerezHilton and her manager, Larry Rudolph,
thats just britney having fun and rehearsing.

i saw this pic,
and i fell in love.

photo from perezhilton.com

i love lesbians.
i found this pic of lindsay lohan and samantha ronson to be completely adorable.
i esp love the fact that sam is laughing,
it seems to be so genuine.
love, baby.

i just finished watching the premiere of gossip girl.
i think i expected a lot more than i got.
i hated that chuck couldnt manage to open his huge ass mouth
and tell blair that he loved her.
gees.
give me something to work with, seriously.

so while GG was a disappointment,
one tree hill wasnt.
given that the episode has been out for about a week now,
im not going to give a spoliers warning.
i LOVED that finally lucas made the right choice.
LUCAS&&PEYTON.
friggin 5 seasons in the making and it finally happened.
i screamed when i saw that he really choose her.
its what any true OTH fan has been hoping for since the first episode.
am i geeky?
im sure i am.
but know what?
im a HAPPY geek!
take that! lol.

i think thats all on the celeb front.
i covered my basis.
that was everything i found to be of importance.
everything else was just crap. haha.

moving to more personal ish...
arent feelings confusing?
i can never quite seem to figure mine out until its too late.
i feel like im constantly in a state of
"do i?" "dont i?"
its annoying as fuck.
i hate never being able to make a final decision.
i dont think ive had secure, positive feelings about someone since high school.
thats been like about a year.
thats a pretty long time,
eso considering ive been in relationships during that year.
maybe my mind is just too smart for my own good,
and its stopping me from truly liking anyone til its
the one.
i hope this is the case.
because if it isnt,
then im fucked. =]
once again,
i think i like someone,
but im just not quite sure if its actual infatuation,
or just boredom.
only time will tell i suppose.

mmkay.
im off.

<33>

wait

how ya doin lil mama
lemme whisper in ya ear
tell ya somethin ya might like to hear
ya got a sexy ass body
and yur hairs looks soft
mind if i touch it and see if its soft

good song.
perverted as fuck.
but i love it . =]

man,
i havent blogged in days.
but work has drained everything from me.
sorry.
anyways.
onto business.

so.
Do You Know.
its the new Jessica Simpson CD.
let it be known,
im not the biggest jessica simpson fan.
he voice kinna bugs me.
BUT
country is what she shouldve been doing from the beginning.
her new cd doesnt completely suck.
if you like jessica and you like country,
youll LOVE this cd.
if it had been any other woman singing these songs,
it wouldve been a cd i wouldve liked.
but it wasnt.
her voice is just a little too whiny for me.

on another note,
paramore's tour is coming to an end.
very sad.
but im excited that they get to go back into the studio
and start working on another album
that will im sure be even better than their first 2. =]
heres a video of crushcrushcrush from when they were in costa mesa.


peace!

coming home

it just ended on POWER 106.
haha.
catchy song.

anyways,
i didnt write yesterday.
long day.
shall i share? of course.
so i went with 2 butch lesbians,
who we'll call sally and jane.
it was fine for the first half,
until they decided to go to a sex shop.
now im not a prude,
and i was fine going to a sex shop.
ive been to one before.
however,
being there for 2 hours made sally and jane very horny.
sally and jane are best friends.
and we all know that best friends should not have benefits
and that 2 studs just dont go together.
period.
but
once we got home,
they started touching on each other on a joke in front of me,
and it eventually ended in jane rubbing sally's clit in front of me,
until i excused myself and went to the living room.
awkward?
yesssss.
disgusting?
yesssss.
now anyone that knows me knows that im not easily made to feel awkward.
so for me to feel awkward speaks VOLUMES.
for reals.

anyways,
on to other ish,
im really loving the fitness center at my new apt complex.
its freaking awesome.
AND
its empty! yay!
haha.
its the little things that make me happy =]

i dont have any interesting celeb news really.
i picked up the new issue of People with Ellen and Portia on the cover.
Go buy one and support love!
heres a pic from the wedding,
which i find completely adorable.

photo from justjared.com

i think thats all for today.
peace.
<33

orphan

another new jack's mannequin song that ive had stuck in my head.
i cannot stress enough how great the glass passenger is.
amazing!
buy it when it comes out!!

anyways,
i feel sick.
it sucks ass.
its like cramps mixed with the feeling of throwing up.
maybe its depression.
haha.
jk.
ima put it on my period and homesick-ness.
hehe.

onto other news,
gwen stefani gave her new baby boy a very feminine name.
and while there is an explanation behind the name,
no boy should
a. have 3 names and
b. have his first 2 names end in "a"
they named him zuma nesta rock rosdale.
no kid needs 3 names. seriously.
apparently they got zuma from zuma beach,
which is where gavin had his epiphany of what he was gonna do with his life.
nesta was bob marley's first name before immigration officials changed it to robert.
and rock is pretty self-explanitory.
either way,
i dont think a boy should have a name that ends with an "a."
but
congrats to the happy family!


photo from justjared.com

so rachel mcadams and ryan gosling are back together.
isnt that the cutest news?
makes me wanna watch the notebook. haha.

ok.
i think im done blogging now.
byee!

sway

i didnt have a song stuck in my head like i normally do,
so i put my itunes on shuffle
and sway came on.
the micheal buble version.
while i love michael buble and the music he puts out,
i think ppl should really educate themselves and listen to the original versions.
fall in love with those =]

...
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me
....

how ironic.
a brandi carlile song just came on.
haha.
i guess even my itunes knows how much i love her.

anyways,
im continuing to listen to the new jacks CD.
i love it more and more with each listen.
if youd like the link for how to get it,
contact me.

so packing is a bitch.
i hate how im constantly moving my stuff in and out.
i feel like a nomad.
i never have a true home.
i will be so happy once im settled in irvine once again.
my new roommates are proving to be amazing.
and i get to live with jeanelle.
minus the drama of the girls who are taking our spots and Justine,
its all pretty good.
now i just need to decide if i wanna take my blue sheets or my red ones.
decisions decisions.
haha.
man,
life is hardd.

but seriously it is.
so apparently my job might cancel calling for the rest of the summer,
which would so fuck me over,
seeing as the only reason im going to irvine early is to work,
so i can pay for my rent.
life always has a way of biting me in the ass.
for reals.

ok. im done.
must try and pack.
hahahaha.

caves

so i just got the new Jack's Mannequin CD,
The Glass Passenger.
It is amazing.
Great sophomore effort.
Right now,
I have "Caves" playing.
I love this group,
they have endured so much.
However, what i enjoy most is that all their songs are driven by the piano.
Ive had the pleasure of seeing them live,
along with Paramore,
and they are incredible.
They put on such an amazing show.
They're engaging and actually sound how you would expect them.
Another one of my favorite songs is "American Love."
If you look around,
you can find the unreleased CD.
However, please support JM when theyre CD comes out in September!

On to other stuff,
now i know ive already posted something about the
DeGeneres-de Rossi Marriage,
but Ellen just released a message about how happy she is.
Ellen has fought through so much,
from coming out and getting her show canceled because of that
to having an ex who decided she was straight after all.
Her life as been far from easy,
and with Portia's eating disorder,
her life hasnt been easy either.
I can wait for the new issue of People to come out so we can see the pics
and for the new season of Ellen to start so we can see video.
Congrats for the newlyweds!

Im not too sure I have anything else to talk about,
so peace!!

my song

here i am
im so young
i know ive been bitter
ive been jaded and alone

another brandi carlile song.
i just cant help it.
she's so completely amazing.
i must have every song she's ever sang on my itunes.
im addicted.
listen to her.
download a couple of songs.
learn them. live them. love them.

anyways,
i dont really know why im blogging today,
other than to praise brandi.

so apparently,
on kanye's blog,
he voted scarlett johansson as his favorite white girl.
now,
while i do love scarlett and everything about her
...
her pouty lips, her blue eyes, her curvy waist, her amazing breasts
...
im not sure why she's kanye's fav white girl.
is it cuz she's competely hot?
is it cuz shes backing obama?
is it cuz he just plain loves her movies?
i mean, why?
he posts tons of pictures,
which leads me to believe that its becaise of the way she looks.
however,
many people in this industry are beautiful.
i mean,
are we forgetting the one and only angelina jolie?
duh.
she is drop dead gorgeous.
God took his time making her.
Not only is she psychically attractive, however,
but she's an active humanitarian.
c'mon.
i think id have to go with angelina before i went with scarlett,
though,
i do believe she'd come in 3rd,
right after miss kelly clarkson,
a true southern sweetheart.

Josephine

so if you havent noticed by now,
all my entry titles are the title of a song.
currently.,
its a brandi carlile song.

...
take me back josephine
to that cold and dark december
i am missing someone
but i dont know who
now im standing alone
and im trying to remember
sometimes i wonder how i ever started loving you
...

beautiful, isnt it?

anyways,
on a very happy note,
im happy to spread the word that ellen and portia are now married!
nothing makes me happier than knowing that 2 ppl in love are finally able to get married.
everyone should learn from them,
love is love,
no matter what sex you or your partner are.
<33

crushcrushcrush

rock n roll baby
dont you know that
we're all now
we need something to sing about.

word on the street is ellen and portia are slated to get married this weekend,
which is amazing.
i love them,
esp ellen.
she just seems so incredibly sincere.
plus, she really does deserve this after all she's gone through.
i could not be happier.
its ground breaking.
and freaking fantasmic.

on another note,
i was supposed to have a super huge and wonderful party this weekend,
which wont be happening anymore, sadly,
due to the fact that my dumbass roommate forgot to set up electricity.
grrr...

oh and ive learned that the lesbian world in orange county is freaking tiny!
like look at your fingernail on your baby toe.
thats how small it is.
so somehow my bff bry ended up meeting my friend/coworker heina through another mutual friend, julie. like as if this world wasnt small enough. seriously.
lifeeeee.
haha.

peace!

wake up america.

i lag on postings.
its all good tho.

so.
lets talk olympics yeah?
isnt michael phelps completely gorgeous?
he is so fucking completely hot.
its ridiculous.
i wanna have hot pool sex with him
and make tiny little phelps babies.
im not obsessed tho.
of course not.

so aside from phelps breaking all kinds of nearly impossible records,
its so fun just rooting for america.
i get such a kick from it.
it fuels my competitive side.
i love love love it.

getting away from the olympics,
isnt life just wonderful?
haha.
i freaking am in love with brandi carlile now that i know for fact she is lesbian.
lesbians are awesome.
what can i say?

so having been home all summer,
i started watching house on dvd for the first time ever.
its such a good show.
buttt
i always end up thinking theres probably like 100 different things wrong with me
that i dont know about yet.
i keep watching anyways.
maybe ill be able to self diagnose.
hmm...

other than house.
i watch kathy griffin
and
john and kate plus eight.
im in love with both.
i cant wait for the finale of kathy.
"suck it jesus!"

ok. i think im done.
i just wanted to update this.
ha.

peace.

<33

raising sand

i just started listening to the album today really.
rising sand by alison krauss and robert plant.
amazing combination.
the way both of their voices harmonize is orgasmic.
it completely relaxes you,
while at the same time haunting you.
ive been a huge fan of alison for years now,
and she has yet to disappoint me with an album.
i love the songs "gone gone gone" and "polly come home."
the former sounds like a beatles song.
and the latter is just completely haunting.

anyways,
its been a long day.
my mom woke me up at eight am to go have breakfast with my grandma for her bday.
we ended up at home town buffet with my aunt maria.
it was overall pretty good,
seeing as the place was empty.lol.
we then went to costco after.
and thennn,
i finally got to go home and rest.
i took like a four hour nap.

we went to dinner at el mercadito.
me, my mom, my grandparents, andy, gabriel, marcia, maria, and suzan.
good times, as always.
mm...what else is there to say really?
i think im out.
peace<33

hello mr heartbreak

less than 36 hours until this hell week is over!!!!!!!!
ah.
ive never been more overjoyed.
this week of finals has been worse than last quarter.
gah.
im so stressed.
i have too many essays to write.
its so unfair.
and i seem to have no attention span.
im seriously going to be up all night.
fvbdfhvbfghvsfdjdis.
thats how my mind is right now.
only people going through finals right now know the kind of stress i speak of.
for reals.
life is so against me.
its horrible.
oh well.
i just want to be able to relax and do nothing and not feel guilty about.
i want to have time to think and not feel bad for thinking.
i want to sleep as long as humanly possible.
i want so much.
and i really want a hug.
from my momma.
and from krystle.
fuuuck.
ok
im gonna go back to reading freud's civilization and its discontents.

perdon

means pardon in spanish.
buttt
its also an amazing duet by vicente and alejandro fernandez.
and right now,
instead of writing one of three essays,
im listening to my collection of vicente fernandez music hoping it will heal me.

so my eye isnt getting any better.
so ill be going go the doctor and letting them rob me blind of my money.
fuck.
i seriously hope its just an infection that i need antibiotics for.
seriously.
or else im screwed.

thats all i really wanted to write.
ths will all be over in 2 days and like 8 hours.
thank goshhhhh

hide and seek

i cant get her out of my head
and its driving me nuts.
seriously.
what the mother fuck is wrong with me?
how the hell did i fall for her this fast?
i cant function.
thats been all ive thought about all day.
and i dont think she likes me.
and that kills me.
and fuuuck.

21 things i want in a lover

mmm...day at ucla.
well night actually.
night and a day.
got here last night.
spent the day here.
still here.
might be here another day.
dont know
but....
i did get some work done!
yay me!
lol.
finally.
seriously.
haha.
i still have so much left to do.
oh well.
baby steps.

anywho.
the girl im seeing is stil driving me nuts.
like wtf?
what do i do?
what do i do?
i like her
but do i like her that much?
i dont like feeling owned.
but i like owning other people.
and i kinna like the feeling of being someones
but idk if i wanna be her someone.

ahhh.
help me.
save me.
boo.

bad girl

new danity kane cd.
welcome to the dollhouse.
amazing dthe.
ive had the song bad girl in my head since i first heard it last night.
its seriously amazing.
buy the album when it comes out.
its what you would expect from them.
woman empowerment.
upbeat dance music.
just overall fun.
the hooks are catchy.
the vocals are amazing.
and all the girls take turns singing lead.
buy it!
welcome to the dollhouse by danity kane.

on another note,
i stayed up til seven am today
but at least i got some reading done=)
finally.lol.

gahhh
FINALSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they are by far one of the gayest things ever invented.
like who came up with this brilliant idea?
i wanna hunt them down and kill them.
now while i realize theyre already dead, im sure,
it would make me feel a lil better to just take a shot or two.
see what finals do to me?
they make me violent.
gahhh....

class in 45 min.
i dont wanna go.
at all.
ugh.
i hate school.
i want it to be spring break already.
ebfjhbdfvihsdbvshdfb

me matas

ok so i have a serious problem no joke.
i think its a disease actually.
cuz although i say im start studying everyday,
i never do.
wtf?
gahhhh
its like i wanna fail or something.
wtf?
im not invincible but yet im treating finals week as if i am.
bahhh.

anyways.
work in less than 2 hours.
gayyyy.

soo....
lately ive been pursuing a girl.
but its different
cuz im pretty sure shes straight,
which i hate.
i hate liking a straight girl.
its like you seriously have no chance in hell.
why cant everyone just be bi?
boooo.

oh and today at lunch i saw a girl ive been talking to online.
let me just say that that was awkward.
seriously.
i averted my eyes so fast and got out of there like i was flash.
so awkward.
and im pretty sure she realized it was me.
how horrible.


kay im off.
im determined to read a lil.

are you still mad

hello.
hmm...
what to say today?
im not quite sure.
hmm...
haha.
class is boring.
and finals are beginning to scare the crap out of me.
and yet,
instead of studying,
im writing this.
priorities, priorities.
haha.

fuuck.
i need to pass my classes,
seriously.
or im royally fucked
and back home i go to LA
to attend a very crappy community college.
boo-ness.fuuck.
need to read.
must read.
crap crap crap

Bohemian Rapshody

so i was at the mall today.
typical Saturday.
lots of people.
mostly hispanic.
all crammed in together to try and get "los sales."
so my godmother needed to use the restroom,
so we use the upstairs one at the ghetto JC Penny.
im in line,
when, behind me, two people come into the restroom.
one is a mother.
middle aged, obese, hispanic.typical for where i come from.
the other is her daughter.
about four or five, hispanic, and...
obese.
as a fat person,
i cant see how one would be able to let their daughter get like that.
i mean, come on.
theres so many stigmas that go along with being obese.
the mother MUST know this,
so how could she allow her little girl to go through the same thing?
personally,
i never want any of my kids to have to suffer any more discrimination than necessary.
and weight is something that can be controlled,
esp since her daughter is so young.
she still has the power.
i just hope one day that she uses it.

on a totally different note,
i officially came out to my godmother today.
it was different.
everyone else i told had all completely expected it.
i dont really think it took any of my friends by surprise.
but she seemed to be a little taken aback.
it was funny, to say the least.
oh well.
one less person i have to come out to...

im off here for now.
peace
<33

naughty girl

another day of not going to class.
how lovely, yes?
idk what it is now a days.
i just dont seem to be motivated to go.
ill study, sure.
but i wont actually go to class.
im beginning to seriously think that maybe a higher education isnt for me.
like i dont enjoy it anymore.
i dont feel challenged.
and idk.
something needs to change.
im hoping next quarter is different considering im taking classing i WANT to take
and not ones that are a last resort.
hmm...we'll see what happens.

so last night i kinda came out to my godmother.
im not completely sure if she caught my drift or not,
but whatever.
haha.
i tried=)

mmmm for home=)
i so excited.
soo soo excited.haha.
its the little things that make me happy.

oh
me and my roommate had like such a talk yesterday.
i have no clue where ill be living next year,
but it sure will be interesting seeing how everything goes down.

alright.im off.
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